Sunday, 26 August 2007

Light at the end of the tunnel !

Portmeirion    ''I wanted to show people,with a sort of light opera approach,that architecture ,could be entertaining,interesting,intriguing.could be fun.''Sir Clough Williams Ellis  Architect and creator of Portmerion

Thankyou to dear Bunny for this card you sent me ,and indeed to everyone for your cards and emails and e cards ,with all your good wishes ,plus all the comments on my last entry ,you cant imagine how much it has helped me over the last few weeks ,Thankyou from the bottom of my heart ,I found my self in a very strange place ,for a time ,a place from which you wont be getting a postcard saying ''wish you were here''!

At first ,I couldnt see the point in anything,kept asking my self ,''whats it all about?''.....but gradually as each day has gone by I have felt abit better ,not as quick as I would have liked.... but I now feel Im getting there ,I now go out to the shops again ! the first week that was an ordeal ,I even went up to our town yesterday ,with my trolley ,and was pleased to discover that a couple of the shop windows still had their displays from the previous weeks ''Fortys weekend ''(we didnt go this year ,for obvious reasons)

I feel I may be on these tablets for a while yet ,my Doctor has assured me she will be monitering me and wont pull the rug from under me,I will stop taking them when we both agree,meanwhile one day at a time !I even did some knitting the other night ,something I  hadnt done in a while ,with hind sight ,this has been creeping up on me for a while ,But Im going to beat it ,Have a blessed Sunday everyone ,I will finish this entry with the siggy my dear friend Debbie made for me ,Debbie has been so suportive to me ,so understanding ,bless you Debs

With Love

 

49 comments:

jeanno43 said...

So glad that you are starting to feel so much better my dear friend, just take it one day at a time, you will get there.  What a pretty card.  Never been there but seen it on t.v.  Thanks for sharing the photos with us, nice to see xxxxx

nedmoh said...

Hi Jan ,so lovely to see an entry from you and know you are " on the mend",it was good to talk to you yesterday and to know how you were after being away . Hopefully this sunshine will stay with us now  as thats makes us feel better .Thanks Debbie for being a good friend to my big sister ,who is very special to us .Loved the photos of the shop window ,what are you knitting ? I forgot to ask  ....With love and hugs Jeanxx

blpltt said...

Lovely to get your alert !  I know   where you've been, Jan, and it does take time.  The knitting is a very positve sign.
You're in my thoughts every day.
BTW love to Maurice and Kizzie.
Bunny xx

faveanti said...

Good to have you back - like you say "one day at a time" and gently does it.
love, Angie xx

brck753 said...

You are so very very welcome.
Debbie
xxx

marainey1 said...

I was delighted to see the alert with an entry from you this morning .  Thank the good Lord you are getting better and getting out and about too!  You will remain in my thoughts and prayers.  'On Ya' - ma

frdbrow7 said...

Yes, glad I was on the 'pooter' when your alert arrived, good to see you are on the mend.

I accidently missed the forties show this year, and missed all the lovely shop window displays too, so thanks for posting some of them.

Hope things continue to improve
(((((hugs))))) from Freda

pharmolo said...

Wishing you well in your continued recovery, Jan.

madcobug said...

I am glad that you are feeling better Jan and can get out and about again. My best wishes and prayers for you. Hugs, Helen

kirkbyj05 said...

I'm so happy to hear that Jan!   Life is wonderful.  Please carry on recovering your old cheery self.
With love  'n hugs

Jeanie  xxx

aniracj said...

Hi Jan, I know only too well what depression can do and how it can sneak up from behind and catch you unawares!!!! It was good to see an entry from you and that you are slowly, but surely 'getting there'. Take care my friend, my thoughts are with you as always.....much love, Joan

labdancer51 said...

I`m so pleased that you are feeling better Jan, depression is a nasty illness that can`t be seen but is very real indeed. It`s good that you have a very understanding and helpful doctor to take care of you.  Take care my friend.

Love Sandra xxxx

icklemisssexpot said...

There's been a very interesting thread on the general news board about depression and panic attacks the last few days...Most of those who have been on anti depressants have all said 6 months minimum was what their GP's said...It was 6 months i was supposed to be on them but ended up at about 10 months due to having to get mine changed a couple of times...So pleased to hear that you have managed to go out and about :o) For some it creeps up on you and others it is sudden and out of the blue...I fell into the latter category and think you did too...Take care and just take one day at a time   {{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}   Caff xxxxxxx

sdrogerson said...

so glad you are feeling better (well a bit)

jaymact1 said...

So glad you are feeling a bit better and hope you are on the mend and will soon be back to your old self.   Love Joan.

ally123130585918 said...

Jan I am so pleased you are feeling a bit better and managing to get out and about with your trolley :o)  ~ One day at a time is the best way to go ~ glad you are doing a little knitting and starting to get back to your usual self ~ Loved the pictures of the shop windows ~ Ally x

edwardssoapy said...

Hi Jan.

I am so glad you are feeling better now.  Take it easy, one day at a time is always best.  i'm happy that you have been able to go out and about and slowly getting back to the Jan we know and love!

Thinking of you,
Leigh :o)
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sybilsybil45 said...

Dearest Jan, Just because you have been out of sight  you certainly have not been out of mind and our prayers that have been surrounding you.  Obviously it is working. So glad that you are feeling a bitty better. Now don't go and overdo things  just take it one day at a time.  Love  Sybil xx

astoriasand said...

Loved the pictures Jan and the lovely card Bunny sent you.I am happy to read you are feeling a little better.I undestand fully the feeling you had,having suffered depression over many yrs in the past.I wouldn't send my worst enemy there.Yes it will take time and I was told not to run before I walked,which I think I tried to do and it backfired on me then.Lovely that Debbie was such an angel.Thankyou Debbie for taking time out to help Jan, our Dear friend.Take Care Jan just trying to do afew alerts in between all the rest.God Bless Kath
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cacklinrosie101 said...

Jan, I was so glad to get your alert and glad that you are seeing the light again.  Take your time with this.  No need to rush getting off the meds.  I've been down that road many times and wouldn't wish it on any one.  You will get better as each day passes.  I'm glad you got yourself out and about again.  Love xx  Chris

lindachapmanuk said...

Jan! what great news...I am so glad you are feeling better and well done you! it takes a big effort...loved the pics love Linda xx

lsfp1960 said...

Jan, I'm happy to hear you're feeling better.  Just take it easy, one day at a time.  Linda in Washington state

jckfrstross said...

so glad you are better:) have a good week:) WTG Debbie :)

Deb

hugsdoodlewacky said...

(((((((((((((((((HUGSTOYOU))))))))))))))Glad your feeling better,hope you have a good week.

funnyface0s0 said...

Hello Jan -
Just read this and last entry that you made...... i am so sorry to hear that you have been unwell.  Gosh where has all this sprung from ?  i can't believe it.  But then as my Doctor said to me recently even strong people can feel depressed.  I am sending you all my love and good wishes to help you feel much better.   You are such a lovely person, one of the loveliest i have had the pleasure of meeting here in JLand, you don't deserve to feel like this.   Big smile :o)  
Lots of love Jayne xxx

jlocorriere05 said...

Hi Jan, I'm so glad you're now beginning to feel better, it must've been a bad time for you. I hope you continue on the upturn. Glad you managed to get out and be a trolley dolly again! Take care. Love Jeannette xx  

mllevl said...

 Jan  I am so sorry you have been ill and am glad you are feeling a bit better.  best wishes   eve  x

nightmaremom said...

Jan I am so happy you are seeing that light... good thoughts are sent your way every day.
love ya
d

cayasm said...

I'm only just catching up with the journals, i'm sorry to hear you have been unwell. but glad your on the mend, one day at a time.
My Best Wishes
Yasmin
xxxx

erarein63 said...

Jan so glad you are beginning to feel better.  It helps to venture out and feel the sun on  your face.  And here you are back to taking such lovely pictures!  De ;)

dianemcgregor said...

Hi Auntie Janet it Diane here , have read a few of your entries, well lots really. Glad to hear you are on the right road to recovrey i am sorry to say i am still on the wrong path and have been since Mum died 8yrs ago. I am so happy you are on your way out of what i call a black hole with a light at the end that i can't reach. Please keep on the right path coz the longer it goes on the further the light seem's further away. Get out there and go back to all the wonderful thing's i read about you being able to do . Think of great day's out you used to have like Stoke Breuene you enjoyed that day so much. It is 3.35 i can't sleep i hope you are having pleasant dreams. Love you ( still ) your beloved niece Diane. I do still think of you X X

siennastarr said...

So relieved to hear that you are getting out and about again.  Stay on your meds as long as you need too.  I'm sure you will eventually overcome these things, but, until then.. thank God for those tablets..

Hugs
jackie

mariealicejoan said...

I'm so glad to hear you are feeling better Jan.  You have been in my thoughts and prayers a great deal.  Loved your village photos.  You do take such lovely pictures of the shop windows. I can go window shopping without even leaving home.  I love it!  (Todd does too, because it saves him a bundle!)  ((((HUGS))))
Marie
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kategshepherd said...

You really are a star and I love you to bits, you did very well today whilst we we were out and I am very proud of you. Hopefully now you will start and carry on on the right path. Love you mum - keep smiling - Kate

astra1547 said...

Hi Jan...

I'm so pleased that your feeling much better in yourself and hope you fully recover soon...God Bless!

Astra!
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faircolleen said...

soooooo glad you are feeling a bit better Jan. Awww,you kates comment is beautiful. . .you are blessed with her.Hope you keep feeling better every day.

oddb0dkins said...

Hi Jan, x
Sorry to hear you're not well. At least things are improving a little now so I hope you'll soon be back to your lively self, fighting fit and raring to go. I simply can't imagine you being any other way.

Be well.
B. x

egre328 said...

Glad to read that you are feeling a little better.  I hope you are soon back to feeling fit and well again.  Take care.  Eileenx

irisclyde said...

Sounds as if you are making good progress, slowly but surely as they say. Wishing you well Jan!
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beckiepainton said...

glad your getting back on your feet, those winow displays look very interesting, i love things like that! bekcie x

wldconnie said...

I have just read your blog...oh Jan what a frightening experience for you. I had similar problems some years ago and it is very frightening. I had awful panic attacks and could not get my breath. Mind you it was as a result of finding out that my husband had been playing away yet again! I was on Prozac when I lost my job in 1998 also. Take the tablets as they will make you feel better. It won't be forever, just until you get back to normal. Have you been worrying about something? There is usually a reason for depression. Get well soon anyway. Lots of love Conniexxx

zoepaul6968 said...

Im so glad youre on the mend,and that youre being cautious with the medication,but its a long road,we will walk it with you hugs zoe xxx
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deegleed said...

Hello Janet. Sorry to learn that you are poorly. I hope all will soon be back to normal. Dan XXX

plieck30 said...

Good to see you have posted again and are feeling a little better. Hope you will be back to your usual self soon. Care about you, Paula

wobblymoo said...

hindsight is a wonderful thing, doesn't help at all when this creeps up on you xx

rdautumnsage said...

((Hugs)) I've been where you are dear one. Right down to having all the test done for Thyroid and checking to see if I was anemic. I was on Lexapro for 2 years. Slowly but surely my Doctor and I worked on weaning me off. It was hard to get off my dependency. I think it was more worrying that I would fall back into that depressive funk. I have now been without medication for going on over a year now. I'm learning to deal with life without having to have a numb solution. I'm keeping you in my prayers on the smoke that you do indeed find your way out of this. (Hugs)Indigo

sylviam4000 said...

Hugs and prayers for you my friend.
Love Sylvia xx

sarajanesmiles said...

I completely understand those "what's the point in anything" thoughts my dear.  I had alot of days like that too.  Hang in there... it will get better and days like that will become less frequent.
((( )))
Sara   x

bbbrendon said...

Its the first time I have read your blog very interesting. You sound a wonderful person with all your family but why are you depressed?
My husband is a person who gets depressed he does 'nt speak to me for hours on end plus he does'nt want to do anything ,he has no hopes and dreams like I do but I dont get depressed I just have to get on with it. I dont want to sound like I know it all perhaps its an illness his mum was the same.You have your religion
and thats good .Since I retired I started to go back to church and Ive made quiet a few friends .good luck with your blog its good to know there are intersting people out there and god bless you and your family