Thursday, 8 December 2005

Keys and tears

I went to work yesterday,I was up at seven ,better than six ! With plenty of time to do my make up and hair ,tidy the house abit ,and settle the dog . Carolyne arrived at nine ,she drove well ,well you never know ,our roads are funny running along side deep Fen drains ,and dykes ,country roads,frost ,etc I could easily get paranoid !!The conversation was good and equal,I hadnt met her before ,she hasnt been with the company long ,She got me there (at my old court)by nine thirty ,half an hour to do what buses took me nearly two hours to do ! As we drove into the road ,to the complex ,I saw it ;ambulance parked out side the office !doors open and no indication where ,the paramedics had gone .I called control via the door ,voice panel ,they opened the door for me , I pressed the button for them to open the key safe for me !It opened ...........no keys inside !!!!!,a few good old anglo saxon words used here !Whos crazy idea was it for me to return to work !!............Calm down your the profesional and can cope in any situation ,dug out my mobile ,rang Hq spoke to Rebecca,she said whats your mobile no Jan ,...dont know !!........ring me back in five ,anyway she got the keys to me and off we go ho ho,...then paramedics with a trolly followed by Rosalind  apeared so I knew it was Madge her Mum  ,I chatted to Rosalind whilst the men put Madge into the ambulance and began to work on her I could see things didnt look good ,Off they went ,but not before one of the paramedic gave me a look !..... .I called everyone ,then set off to visit the vunarable and  favourites !!Lovely to see them they were pleased to see me ,wanting to know what Im doing now; hows Maurice etc etc .   The mobile phone goes its Rosalind ,whos Mum Madge had gone off in the ambulance , Jan ,Mum passed away ................................Now Its my sad duty  to go and tell her particular friends ,a job I dont relish ,but it is better coming from me ,and it saves any speculation etc ,inform HQ inform control and paper work etc ,I love Madge and she has a lovely family ,as some said what a good job you were here Jan ,I kept going till I got home then .......... 

Its a great job with many rewards ,but also many heartbreaks .

We have coffee morning planned tomorrow morning ,and then I will have completed my first week back .

The sun is shining here as I hope it is for you ;with love Jan xx

13 comments:

jeanno43 said...

How sad Jan.  Your job is very rewarding but as you said, full of happiness and sadness.  A death at Christmas always seems so much worse because it is a time for family and being together.  Hugs

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jlocorriere05 said...

It's so sad when someone dies, I know we aren't supposed to get involved but we're only human. Jeannette.

sarajanesmiles said...

Oh, I'm sorry my dear, hugs to you.
I don't suppose that part of your job ever gets any easier, particularly at this time of year.
Sara   x

lsfp1960 said...

Oh that really is sad.  Will pray that the family of Madge finds peace and comfort from above..to sustain them during this time. Hope your Thursday is a better day.  Linda

nedmoh said...

Sorry that poor Madge died on the day you went back to work.Theres never a good time, but we know with losing our parents just before and just after Christmas.So pleased you got on with Carolyne who gave you a lift to work, will it be her each time?...........LoveJeanxx

labdancer51 said...

How sad for you Jan to lose someone that you cared for on your first day back.  I`m sure Madge`s family and friends were glad that you were around.

((((hugs))))

Sandra xxxx

icklemisssexpot said...

{{{hugs}}}} not the best start back especially at this time of year    Caff xxxx

aniracj said...

I know how you must be feeling, when I did care work we had some great times but some very sad ones also.

jaymact1 said...

How sad for you Jan it is something you will never get used to.  On a cheerier note what a differance a car ride makes to your day 30mins instead to 2hrs thats great. Love Joan.

jules19642001 said...

its sad to lose a loved one at any time, but to lost one at Christmas time is even harder. Prayers going out to Rosalind and her family............Jules xxxx
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plieck30 said...

Sorry about the loss. I just had to attend a memorial service for my daughter's father-in-law yesterday. Its even harder for people to have this happen at Christmas time. Paula

kokoapuffy1 said...

{{{Jan}}} Sorry you lost a treasured friend, on your first week back.   ~Deborah

faircolleen said...

Awww, thats sad to go back and that happens. I dont know how you do it Jan.